Neccessity - the Mother of Blogging

One of the reasons that I renewed my blog and changed the name was that I needed an outlet to vent how I really feel about certain things. I could always call my husband and talk to him, but I didn't want to vent everything to him. I also didn't want to complain about problems at home all the time. I was keeping a lot of things inside. I also needed to voice questions on life and circumstances. When I started my other blog I was trying to be very careful about being positive all the time so that folks reading it wouldn't think I was losing it over here. Then I did start losing it!!

I hope that if you are reading this that you care enough not to judge and will offer encouragement and advice from life's experiences.

Back in November the pace of things started to pick up significantly here. We had a change in senior leadership and that involved quite a few social events. The challenge with that was that most of them were held up north were Eric works. This means coordinating child care for the kids, which is turning out to be Jake babysitting, or making sure I get up there and am home by the time Emma gets home from school at 2:30. Also my mom had been here for the whole month of October, and I had stopped going to the gym so I could be home with her. So I was under more stress than I'd been in a while. As many of you know, I don't do too well with stress. It mainly seems to come out in the forms of upset stomach and heart burn. But this time it manifested itself with heart palpitations and shortness of breath. Classic signs of an anxiety attack. I've never experienced this before and it scared me to death. I went to the ER and they hooked me up to the machines and saw that I wasn't having a heart attack. I got to wear a heart monitor that recorded everything for a day and the doctor said it was nothing to worry about. Thank goodness. He did however, after listening to my history about stomach stuff, put me on Nexium (the little purple pill!) to help with acid reduction! I'm glad to say that things have calmed down considerably and the heart racing has been reduced. ( I also had to cut out caffiene - wah!!)

So, not to carry on like my grandmother and tell all of my medical history. I decided that I needed to find a way to express how I was feeling at any given time. To get things off my chest. I figured that blogging the good, the bad and the ugly would be helpful for me. So off I go again - hang on.